Reconnect with Friends

I have reconnected with a great deal of friends. I am truly thankful for all the important people in my life. Thank you all for your hard work and dedication. At the present I experience terrential down pours with hail. That is living in the present. I am scheduled to go karting at the track tomorrow. It will feel great to accelerate on a kart. The NJ Motorsports Track has the karts available and they go over 70 mph. I will let you know how it turns out.

I have vowed to work on one aspect of my life a day. Most bothersome is all the neglected paperwork that I have deposited in the round file. My 7th grade Math teacher who reminded me of that little old lady that would ask Wendy's the main question "Wheres the beef". I was feeling at little nostalgic. Well perseverance and persistence pays off so far. I now know that in order to feel good you have to feel bad. This comes from the laws of probability, so my hopes are realistic.

I have not exercised in a week other than the bike, and my reading has slacked off. However, I have been taking an online course and writing this almost daily. Well lets see where the next week takes me. It should be interesting. As of now, no job and no money. But the pain I'm told is only temporary. I am still out of work for 6 months then we'll see what I will do next. I have gotten the CDL book and now I want to study for the test. Wish me luck.

Knowledge and Experience

I am learning a great deal of information about Web Design and Blog building. For now it is a great hobby. I'm even thinking of taking a few courses here at Cumberland County College offered this summer. The best part about it is that for $100 you too can sign up. The courses are called Creating Web Pages and Introduction to Microsoft FrontPage. So for just under $200 you can further your knowledge of HTML and FrontPage.
This Saturday I'm also going to an AA/NA meeting the first at this location. I will be more involved in the meetings as I am going to help get it going. Of course, I'm still writing and reading everyday. It is nice to get to do it without someone telling you that you have to do it. For once, I'm taking control of the ship and steering along the path that I chose.
We talked about Forgiveness and I wrote a long reflection paper on the topic. It is real good to begin my new life, with my new structure or routine. One that consists of many healthy pursuits. I spend a great deal of my time in solitude, but it works out. Personal growth and new goals finally give me the motivation to continue along the right road. I am clean and sober over a year now and extremely happy for that. I could have been a millionaire for all the money I spent, but while I am poor I am much happier. I leave you with this one quote about success.
"Health, happiness and success depend upon the fighting spirit of each person. The big thing is not what happens to us in life - but what we do about what happens to us."

Forgiveness

I worked in earnest to get a great deal accomplished. The topic of forgiveness came up and it seemed important to discuss. As I worked on my projects to regain my life, I thought it necessary to reflect on where I had been and where I am now. Forgiveness is the ability to let go of resentments and continue a new life of acceptance. Over the course of the past year I have discovered that I wronged some important people. Being self-centered I used defenses such as rationalization and isolation to cope with my existing problems.
However, monumental they seemed at the time, through persistence and some help from my support system, I was able to begin the process of having my life rid of these negative behaviors in a new . What a relief they were out of my head. It almost felt as though a huge weight was off my shoulders. I grew from my self-centered ways into showing more humility. I no longer harbored the feelings of guilt, shame, or embarrasment. Now I had a greater appreciation for those, who despite adversity, succeeded to construct a nice long lasting life. This means a comfortable existence for themselves.
It is a slow process to mend old scars, but not impossible. Confidence now demonstrated its willingness to face the fears and tribulations and never give up attitude. Spirituality now became a part of my life and satisfaction of a more humble existence.
During recent events I exhibited the attitudes of: dishonesty, deceitfulness and self-centeredness. This is where forgiveness comes to play. I truly and genuinely ask for forgivenss as I forgave others for their wayward trespasses. I now release the old character flaws of rationalization, justification, embarassment, isolation, impulsive and loss of control. It is over a year of sobriety for me and now I long to have the existence I had and lost. I will not stop to regain it, for I know now that I am doing all this myself for self. However, it is beneficial for everyone. I humbly ask God for help to remove all my defects in character and reach out to anyone close to hopefully touch their lives with positiveness and improvement.
The concept of forgiveness is to release all past convictions and be a well-rounded altruistic individual.

Tranquility

Imagine you are in a special place. Think about running water falls, a cool breeze whistling by and the sun's rays touching you skin. Listen to the water as it is weaves in and around the rocks. It is serene and surreal. Now relax and breath in and out slowly. Continue this with your favorite melody playing in the background softly. You try it and relax or chillax and then go about your day.

Knowledge Enrichment

Another day using my mind and it seems as though there is so much to learn. That's what makes everything interesting. I thoroughly enjoyed everything. The weather was remarkable and all in all I learned quite a bit. The majority of the day was spent reading technical jargon, so I could use a break. I learned a great deal that if I shared with you, let's just say you would need a blanket and pillow.

Life is looking good and putting back the pieces is a great thing. As things get accomplished I am happy and stress free. I owe all to the circle of trust. While trust is something I struggle with, it gets better with communication. Keep striving and remember most of all....it's not how you start a race and finish, but you must get up when you fall one more time.

Perseverance and Persistence

Have you ever felt that your responsibilities are so overwhelming? How about complete unorganization? Many people experience these challenges where they have too much on their plate. If a problem or a group of problems become too unbearable then break it down into smaller bits and work on one third of the problem without considering the remainder. Eventually, what you discover is that you were able to reduce the group of problems and even able to tackle the entire mountain.

Personally, this has been an endeavor I procrastinated and finally achieved almost complete relief. Now I say almost because are you really ever down. Most likely your not unless incoming issues ceased. The key to success when it comes to paperwork or other issues like financial, legal, moral, health, etc. perseverance must motivate you to tackle the problems head on. In the complex society we live in to be responsible one needs to examine the problems everyday.

When neglected they feel as though the world is going end. Prioritize and persist and most of all release all that stress when you accomplish your paperwork goals.